One simple question has torment my life since i was a child… what is the real meaning of here and now. This is not a philosophical question but a physical one.
What really mean here and now.
How this universe can exist in the way we perceive with our limited senses. Why the time flows in one direction and not in another. But more in deep worried feel, what is this reality.
As a child, i use to read books on astronomy and physics that explains how the interaction of protons and neutrons actually build our reality from the its very bottom. This though makes me wonder how we are here in first place and how we became to exist. If this universe build its precisely engineering from its smallest parts maybe we are just an expression of this infinite order that drag us all.
Most of my fears came from not really knowing what this universe is and were whe really are. If this universe is just a local phenomenon, even tough massive at our scale, will be always an small part of a huge existence that are build in almost different way but we just a singularity destined to fade in time.
Maybe this is just an small part of the massive universe in wich we live. Maybe this is just a very local and focused area that eventually will fade and we with it. This is the fear that torment my little mind.
Maybe instead of an artist i will need to choose a carer on astrophysics and be a part of the many minds trying to figure out how this is and how we become this.
However what makes feel uneasy is the tough that even in that case our limited minds maybe aren’t designed to fully understood what this reality is. The fact that what we see and perceive with our senses is a matter of fact, just a fraction of the world around us also makes me think that in some way we need to develop the technology that someday will allow us to fully understand this reality.
What makes me feel uneasy at times is realizing that i will not see most of the things the humankind will do in its short history trying to understand their place in the cosmos. We will live only a tiny fraction of the time of this universe and even the full history of our race will be a small part of it, even almost any human that will be alive in the future will be unable to experience this universe in its full glory and that, even sand one is a very sad tough.